[ There's a line that's even harder to ignore, but Damian hasn't made his own personal struggles that much of a secret. The details? Maybe in some cases, but he's not bothered to paint a pretty picture of his own childhood. ]
No, it doesn't.
... guess you've been dealing with a lot of visitors after all that.
[ It speaks truer than he realizes. He isn't thinking about himself - and how he'd fixated on Dick's death, or on Alfred's. How he'd revived the latter from the dead because he couldn't deal with it anymore.
He's just thinking of how sad and scared those kids were. ]
[ Right. Allow him to let that sink in for a moment. ]
... are you saying that to make me feel relaxed about it happening to me one day, or because you don't want me worrying about you, or because you're trying to convince yourself? 'Cause...
I'm saying it because it's true. Everybody dies, especially in wartime. I had the fortitude of getting back up, that's it. There's no bigger conversation to have. I accept the possibility every time I go out there, as does everyone else.
"Everybody dies" is just an excuse not to think harder about it. [ But he really doesn't want to go down that road right now, not to where it might lead. ]
I'm just saying if you're feeling more than that, don't avoid it over and over until it comes out at the wrong time.
My mother and grandfather have both died a thousand deaths between them. They've come back, the same was always expected of me. The only reason I didn't die sooner is because Mother would stitch me back together. Not a single organ inside me, save my brain, is one I was born with. Death isn't anything new and hasn't brought me to my knees.
[ He's starting to understand why Jason and Bruce's first instinct, when all is said and done, is to go for a drink. ]
[ It's a reveal that he has no way to process without all the information, something shared so casually that it has him staring for a moment or two. A thousand deaths? How can something like that become mundane or lose its gravitas? What happens when it's the last time? ]
... I don't know what you're going through. Figure I probably won't ever. It's why I said "if", alright? I'm not here to force you to talk about stuff that you don't want to.
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Date: 2019-01-29 04:22 am (UTC)[ Just... go back to eating. Ignoring any looks. ]
It'll be rough on them. Trauma like this doesn't go away overnight.
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Date: 2019-01-29 01:16 pm (UTC)No, it doesn't.
... guess you've been dealing with a lot of visitors after all that.
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Date: 2019-02-03 08:11 am (UTC)He's just thinking of how sad and scared those kids were. ]
Yeah. [ ... ] It isn't that big of a deal.
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Date: 2019-02-03 03:48 pm (UTC)[ Okay, he's not super tactful but this isn't the time to be. ]
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Date: 2019-02-04 11:57 pm (UTC)[ his plans for the record are mostly just staring at the ceiling and having an existential crisis. ]
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Date: 2019-02-07 03:09 am (UTC)... are you saying that to make me feel relaxed about it happening to me one day, or because you don't want me worrying about you, or because you're trying to convince yourself? 'Cause...
no matter what, it feels like a lie.
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Date: 2019-02-08 01:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-02-09 03:45 pm (UTC)I'm just saying if you're feeling more than that, don't avoid it over and over until it comes out at the wrong time.
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Date: 2019-02-15 11:39 pm (UTC)[ He rubs his forehead. ]
My mother and grandfather have both died a thousand deaths between them. They've come back, the same was always expected of me. The only reason I didn't die sooner is because Mother would stitch me back together. Not a single organ inside me, save my brain, is one I was born with. Death isn't anything new and hasn't brought me to my knees.
[ He's starting to understand why Jason and Bruce's first instinct, when all is said and done, is to go for a drink. ]
I'm. Fine. Death is just another test.
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Date: 2019-02-18 03:08 pm (UTC)... I don't know what you're going through. Figure I probably won't ever. It's why I said "if", alright? I'm not here to force you to talk about stuff that you don't want to.
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Date: 2019-02-18 03:22 pm (UTC)[ He gives up. He gives up. Damian shoves a hand through his hair and sighs. ]
Malone and Grayson are the ones who need the support.