[ He's not naive. You can love someone and despise them with every fiber of your being, any warmth rotting to hatred as you think about them and all the ways you let them down. ]
I haven't told him about home because I know him - or the core of him. What he's like. How he views the world. [ And he knows, or at least strongly suspects, that Fitz will report back. Just as he suspects Jason will betray the tenuous trust he has and spill every dirty, rotten secret he has. ] He knew suffering later in life, and he was shielded from the worst of it even then. He's never been in this situation.
[ splitting hairs, but it matters, in this case. ]
You can keep things from him. [ everybody lies and omits. people only think fitz does it less because he’s open about many topics. ] I won’t deny you that right, but it’s still his choice to proceed based on whatever information you’ve given him. However well you know him — and I recognise you know him better than me — you can’t make that decision for him.
[ by assuming he won’t or can’t understand. There’s nuance to the best of this world. Even Captain America and Peggy Carter did what they had to do in the war. ]
[ listen his girlfriend shot his evil dad. he can get down with the concept of slam-dunking questionable fatherhood in the trash where it belongs, but — ]
Then you demand space before you cut them out, so you can figure out necessary boundaries — Set ground rules about keeping their relationships to you and him separate. This city is deceptively small, for people like us.
[ this advice is absolutely some wishful thinking but uh gotta try it? ]
It doesn't work that way. Not with him. I want no part of him.
[ Frustration is creeping into his voice. ]
Imagine - a man ruins your life. Completely. Takes everything away from you. You get free and he shows up here, and you're just supposed to accept him being there.
[ Yeah, he can imagine a few people like that, including his father. Alistair, Ophelia, Ward — ]
Hey, you don’t have to accept it. Whatever he did — it’s obviously inexcusable. No forgiveness. No mercy. [ though it’s not the same man, apparently. ] But pushing everyone away is an ill-fitting stopper.
You mean you gave them an ultimatum. [ Jesus Christ he has the emotional intelligence to deal with about 1/4 of this. ] That is — profoundly self-destructive.
[ he gets a dismissive noise in turn. He doesn't want to go out and make a spectacle of himself. And if morningstar isn't going to clean up after themselves he's not about to do it for them.
He's survived worse. So without another word he turns and stalks off. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:10 am (UTC)[ He's not naive. You can love someone and despise them with every fiber of your being, any warmth rotting to hatred as you think about them and all the ways you let them down. ]
I haven't told him about home because I know him - or the core of him. What he's like. How he views the world. [ And he knows, or at least strongly suspects, that Fitz will report back. Just as he suspects Jason will betray the tenuous trust he has and spill every dirty, rotten secret he has. ] He knew suffering later in life, and he was shielded from the worst of it even then. He's never been in this situation.
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:23 am (UTC)[ splitting hairs, but it matters, in this case. ]
You can keep things from him. [ everybody lies and omits. people only think fitz does it less because he’s open about many topics. ] I won’t deny you that right, but it’s still his choice to proceed based on whatever information you’ve given him. However well you know him — and I recognise you know him better than me — you can’t make that decision for him.
[ by assuming he won’t or can’t understand. There’s nuance to the best of this world. Even Captain America and Peggy Carter did what they had to do in the war. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:28 am (UTC)He's going to side with my old man. And I want no part of any of that.
[ He steps back and away. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:31 am (UTC)Easy. [ hands up in surrender. ] Since when is your dad a factor?
[ he already has a guess: since the last wave of arrivals. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:32 am (UTC)[ he bleeds daddy issues, fitz. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:37 am (UTC)I know the feeling.
[ quite literally. the voice in his head that sounds like the other fitz or his father, depending on the day. ]
But why is anyone choosing sides?
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:39 am (UTC)Because I want nothing to do with him.
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Date: 2019-01-11 08:51 am (UTC)[ for now... ]
Are others against that stance?
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Date: 2019-01-11 08:52 am (UTC)They say he's different. And they'll always side with him when push comes to shove.
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Date: 2019-01-11 08:55 am (UTC)Alright. So what does that mean for you, practically speaking?
[ what’s your plan mate??? ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 08:56 am (UTC)[ Because if it's by his choice, not theirs, its better right? ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 09:32 am (UTC)[ “you’re all stubborn idiots who won’t leave each other alone” ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 09:34 am (UTC)He ruined my life. I'm not going anywhere near him.
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Date: 2019-01-11 09:37 am (UTC)[ listen his girlfriend shot his evil dad. he can get down with the concept of slam-dunking questionable fatherhood in the trash where it belongs, but — ]
But the rest of them...
[ the brothers mainly. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 09:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-01-11 09:51 am (UTC)Then you demand space before you cut them out, so you can figure out necessary boundaries — Set ground rules about keeping their relationships to you and him separate. This city is deceptively small, for people like us.
[ this advice is absolutely some wishful thinking but uh gotta try it? ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 10:00 am (UTC)[ Frustration is creeping into his voice. ]
Imagine - a man ruins your life. Completely. Takes everything away from you. You get free and he shows up here, and you're just supposed to accept him being there.
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Date: 2019-01-11 10:34 am (UTC)Hey, you don’t have to accept it. Whatever he did — it’s obviously inexcusable. No forgiveness. No mercy. [ though it’s not the same man, apparently. ] But pushing everyone away is an ill-fitting stopper.
[ likely to come loose. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 10:41 am (UTC)[ Only to decide for them, immediately. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 01:46 pm (UTC)You mean you gave them an ultimatum. [ Jesus Christ he has the emotional intelligence to deal with about 1/4 of this. ] That is — profoundly self-destructive.
[ you don’t have to say that out loud, Fitz. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 01:51 pm (UTC)I think we're done here.
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Date: 2019-01-11 01:54 pm (UTC)[ he did his part, and his points have been made. ]
But you know where to find me — if you come to that bridge.
[ if we murder, we do it right. ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 01:57 pm (UTC)He's survived worse. So without another word he turns and stalks off. ]