[ It's a reveal that he has no way to process without all the information, something shared so casually that it has him staring for a moment or two. A thousand deaths? How can something like that become mundane or lose its gravitas? What happens when it's the last time? ]

... I don't know what you're going through. Figure I probably won't ever. It's why I said "if", alright? I'm not here to force you to talk about stuff that you don't want to.