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I do too.
[ getting things right is more important to her than she tries to let on. it's easier here, in new amsterdam, to not hold herself to impossible standards for certain things. how she should act around everyone, secret identities, certain parts of the moral code that come with wearing her family crest...
but this? this is important in a way that's different to anything else. and the idea of screwing it up terrifies her. ]
I think maybe getting it right means just letting things evolve naturally but maybe with some checking in? So we don't accidentally step on each other.
[ getting things right is more important to her than she tries to let on. it's easier here, in new amsterdam, to not hold herself to impossible standards for certain things. how she should act around everyone, secret identities, certain parts of the moral code that come with wearing her family crest...
but this? this is important in a way that's different to anything else. and the idea of screwing it up terrifies her. ]
I think maybe getting it right means just letting things evolve naturally but maybe with some checking in? So we don't accidentally step on each other.
[ That's the other thing he's not good at.
More and more he's been faced with his shortcomings. His refusal to let people in, his refusal to communicate when he needs help. He can't -- keep being that person. ]
Okay.
[ Wait, that sounds like he's just being resigned to it. That's not what he means. He turns around to face her, cautiously taking her hands in his. ]
I won't force you to do anything you don't want to, or aren't ready for... and I'll be transparent with my own feelings.
[ a beat. ]
As much as I can be.
More and more he's been faced with his shortcomings. His refusal to let people in, his refusal to communicate when he needs help. He can't -- keep being that person. ]
Okay.
[ Wait, that sounds like he's just being resigned to it. That's not what he means. He turns around to face her, cautiously taking her hands in his. ]
I won't force you to do anything you don't want to, or aren't ready for... and I'll be transparent with my own feelings.
[ a beat. ]
As much as I can be.
[ kara smiles at him, a little shy and red-cheeked. she's been blunt in this whole conversation because she feels like it's the only way she could get through it, and it's a conversation they probably needed to have. ]
I'm not asking for miracles. [ and she knows he keeps things to himself. can't always ask for help. she squeezes his hands. ] Just let me know if I mess up, okay? And I'll do the same for you.
I'm not asking for miracles. [ and she knows he keeps things to himself. can't always ask for help. she squeezes his hands. ] Just let me know if I mess up, okay? And I'll do the same for you.
[ oh. oh, that little gesture is so sweet and she can't help but smile at him when he does that. ]
Okay.
[ she rests her forehead against his and pulls one hand out of his grasp so she can fluff a bit of his hair. ]
Being here has had it's ups and downs and terrifying moments, but being with you is probably the best thing to happen to me in a long time.
Okay.
[ she rests her forehead against his and pulls one hand out of his grasp so she can fluff a bit of his hair. ]
Being here has had it's ups and downs and terrifying moments, but being with you is probably the best thing to happen to me in a long time.
[ It's getting really long. He smiles ever so faintly.
If they're going to have this raw, emotional talk about how they're feeling and what their comfort levels are, he feels like he should be honest. ]
... I forgot what it was like to hope.
[ ... ]
Then when I saw you -- heard you that day -- I remembered. You made me remember why I wanted to be a hero.
If they're going to have this raw, emotional talk about how they're feeling and what their comfort levels are, he feels like he should be honest. ]
... I forgot what it was like to hope.
[ ... ]
Then when I saw you -- heard you that day -- I remembered. You made me remember why I wanted to be a hero.
[ maybe it's cliche to think it, but his words take her breath away. they hit her right in the heart, making ache with overflowing feelings that she doesn't quite know how to express or contain.
kara leans up and kisses him. lets the blue glow in her chest carry over what it can and hopes that damian can make some sense out of it. she's honored that he thinks that, and overwhelmed by it, and she loves him in that moment, so much so that she feels fit to burst with it. she wants to hold him close and protect him and never let him go because he is so very precious and has just absolutely floored her. ]
kara leans up and kisses him. lets the blue glow in her chest carry over what it can and hopes that damian can make some sense out of it. she's honored that he thinks that, and overwhelmed by it, and she loves him in that moment, so much so that she feels fit to burst with it. she wants to hold him close and protect him and never let him go because he is so very precious and has just absolutely floored her. ]
[Clarke and Damian failing to communicate: a day ending in Y.
A location ping follows. It's a restaurant that marks the end of a recent art walk. Their website says some work is still up, so it's an easy middle ground. It seems casual, easy to drop in at and have a talk.]
See you soon?
A location ping follows. It's a restaurant that marks the end of a recent art walk. Their website says some work is still up, so it's an easy middle ground. It seems casual, easy to drop in at and have a talk.]
See you soon?
I'll feel better with you there.
[ she knows what having damian at her back's worth. a delay. she realizes she needs to confirm who 'the rest of you' is to damian. ]
You're not going to free Judas, are you?
[ she knows what having damian at her back's worth. a delay. she realizes she needs to confirm who 'the rest of you' is to damian. ]
You're not going to free Judas, are you?
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